Sunday, November 26, 2023
First Look: Chapter 1 of Good Girl Gone Bad
Tuesday, April 20, 2021
First Look: Read the First Chapter of Don't Look Behind You
Don't Look Behind You comes out in twenty days! Holy cow. I cannot believe it. In the mean time, are you ready for a first look? Keep reading for the first chapter.
Chapter 1
Day 91,
Monday
Most people find orchids to
be finicky plants. Their requirements for growing shiny new leaves and
sprouting arching branches of blooms are too difficult to reproduce. People
plant them in dense, smothering soil and complain when the plant withers to
nothing but a dried, brown husk. What they don’t understand is that most
orchids are epiphytic, meaning they grow hanging suspended from a tree branch
or a slick cliff. They bloom only if precise conditions are met, or not at all.
I know all of this because I used to grow them. Gently bowed green leaves on
mossy chunks of cork bark, suspended near the perfect window by clear fishing
line stretched taut.
I was always
drawn to their particularity and resilience.
Not anymore. Not
now that I’m the one clinging to life as a shriveled, nearly dead stub of brown
in an airless, smothering situation.
I left every
single one of my plants behind when I moved in with Aunt Karen.
After.
The newly
purchased loose blouse still has the tags hanging from the back collar. Its
sharp edges are making the tender skin between my shoulder blades itch. I bend
awkwardly, trying to reach it, and only manage to pull out a few strands of my
overlong, hickory brown hair. What I wouldn’t give for a broken-in tee and jean
cutoffs.
Helplessness
threatens to overwhelm me, making me collapse on to the edge of the too-small
twin bed, pawing at the bright red comforter with black polka dots. I’d have
deemed it too childish to use if Aunt Karen hadn’t told me she’d purchased it
because it reminded her of my favorite anime show about a teenage girl whose
superhero alter ego is a ladybug. I didn’t have the heart to tell her I’m not
interested in it anymore. Or any of my other former hobbies.
None of it makes
me light up like it did Before.
The old house
creaks as someone moves down the hallway.
I look up, my
pulse skittering.
“Does everything
fit all right?” Aunt Karen stands in the doorway, her perceptive brown eyes
skimming over me. Her dyed red hair is starting to grow out, leaving a stripe
of gray at her scalp.
I bite my lip,
nodding. “This outfit okay?”
“The blouse
looks nice on you. Feminine.”
Not like my old clothes.
The older woman
moves into the room, dressed for her new job at the grocery store in a slouchy
green polo and khaki slacks. Her eyes glance over my face and away. “Where’s
your bracelet?”
“Oh. I—”
“Your parents
would have wanted you to wear it,” she encourages, picking up the sterling
bangle from the top of the dresser and watching with keen eyes as I snap it on to
my wrist.
The clothes tag
rustles when I move, sparking Aunt Karen’s continued scrutiny. “What is that?”
“Tag. Would you
mind...?” Presenting her with my back, I pull my hair forward over my shoulder.
My skin prickles at the exposure, but I hold myself still.
Aunt Karen
excuses herself to get some scissors from the kitchen, returning with a bright
red set that ironically also still has the tag on. The older woman gives half a
smile as she yanks it off and tosses it in the wastebasket under the small desk
in the corner. “It’s amazing the things you have to buy when you move. Being
back in this house feels like going back in time.” Her eyes take in the room
around me before she moves closer.
I’m grateful she
doesn’t see me flinch as she draws closer with the gleaming shears.
Carefully, as if
she’s afraid I’ll collapse if she touches me, my new guardian cuts the tag out
of my blouse and tosses it.
“How are you
feeling about your new school? You know how you’re going to introduce yourself
yet?”
I shrug. I’ve
been dreading this, so instead of making a mental plan like I normally would,
I’ve kept putting it off. I guess I’ll figure it out if anyone asks. Probably
no one will.
“Practice makes
permanent. You should run over what you want to say in the car on the way over.
Want me to role play it with you?” The woman crosses her arms, studying me.
“No, thanks.
I’ll manage.” Shouldering my backpack, I follow her out on to the landing. The
door to the master bedroom has been shut tight. In the short time I have
resided in this place, I have never trespassed there.
The temperature
drops as we descend the stairs. Under her breath I hear Aunt Karen grumbling
about how inefficient the old house is with its minimal insulation and
seventy-year-old windows. While the upstairs is near too warm, the downstairs
feels like a freezer. I consider going back upstairs for a sweater but don’t.
The second I step outside, I’m slammed by a wall of air so hot it steals my
breath. It’s not even 8 AM and already almost 90 degrees. The jean skirt I’m
wearing chafes, the blouse tacky against my skin. It’s got to be twenty degrees
warmer here than at home.
Home.
My eyes threaten
to well over, but I force the tide back. I can’t arrive for my first day of
school with puffy eyes and splotchy skin. I get into the passenger side of Aunt
Karen’s sedan once she unlocks it and click my seatbelt into place.
Despite the
ocean of sadness that washes over me, I’m relieved to be out of the old house
that has been in the family since it was built in the 1940s. The white paint
peeling off the clapboard siding and the weathered front porch testify to the
truth of it. Against the side of the aged structure, the AC unit shudders as it
tries to keep pace with the climbing heat.
I look up at the
house, all of its windows and blinds shut against the outside.
As Aunt Karen
backs out of the driveway, something in my chest loosens. I’m nervous about
going to a new school where I won’t know anyone, but it’s got to be better than
that house, where every move I make is catalogued and deconstructed. The idiom walking on eggshells has never been so
concrete in my mind as now.
The car moves
down the street past orchard after orchard of almond trees. Apparently, it’s
the town’s major crop, along with milk. This side of town is all farm land; the
other side flooded by the sea of black and white cows at the dairy. You can
smell the stench from the freeway.
In town, we pass
the grocery store, a big box store, barber shop, furniture store, boutique
dress shop, a beauty parlor with faded photos in the windows, and a coffee
shop/diner. That’s it—that’s the entire town.
I make quick
work of my breakfast, wadding up the foil wrapper and tucking it into my
pocket. Aunt Karen wouldn’t like me leaving it in the car’s spotless interior.
The school looks
pretty much how it did during orientation a couple days ago. A long, single
storey white building with a gymnasium at one end. A knight on a horse is
painted on the side of the gym over a banner saying, “Go Lancers!” Behind that
is the football stadium, which looks well-kept even though the metal bleachers
are ancient.
The parking lot
is separated into two sections: the teachers’ cars mostly sedans and minivans,
while the student lot is full of trucks with extended cabs. Many are downright
filthy, hinting at the popular pastimes of rodeos and off-roading. I wrinkle my
nose as Aunt Karen pulls to a stop right in front of the main building.
Every student
standing on the sidewalk turns to gape as I unbuckle my belt and move to open
the door.
Aunt Karen stops
me with a firm hand on my arm. “Do you have your recorder?”
“Oh. Yeah.”
Unzipping the front pouch of my new backpack, I unbury the small silver device
and turn it on, careful to keep it low enough that no one outside the car can
see it.
“Don’t forget to
check it between classes to make sure it’s still going.” Her tone is
admonishing.
“Don’t worry,
okay? I won’t forget.” I know how
important it is.
She watches me
for a beat. “I’ll be here to pick you up after school. Wait right out front.”
I promise to
comply before climbing out of the car. She doesn’t pull away as I move toward
the clump of students on the front steps. Their conversations hush as I draw
closer. All eyes are on me—the new girl.
I try to muster
a small smile, but one by one their expressions register my face and flick
away, as if they’re afraid to stare. My hand comes up to cover the white scar
that cuts a line from my left nostril all the way to my hairline. Dropping my
chin, I let my hair fall in front of my face like a curtain.
The metallic
blue front door flies open, almost knocking me in the head. I gasp, jumping
back.
“Crap. Sorry.
I’m sorry! Megan?”
My reddened face
whips up to lock on the boy who just tried to murder me with a door. The gangly
boy with an anime tee and thick black plastic glasses frames gives me a
sheepish smile. Adjusting the backpack strap he’s got slung over one shoulder,
he holds out a hand. “I’m Noah Lopez, your student liaison. Welcome to Valley
High.” He steps back, motioning for me to go through the door he holds open.
We step into the
administration building. The aisle passes the high counter manned by a
secretary and out the other side to the open-air courtyard.
My heart is
staging a revolt in my chest cavity. I can do this. I can.
The secretary
gives me a warm smile. “Good morning! I gave Noah here your schedule. He’ll
show you around, okay, hon? And don’t be afraid to ask if you need anything.”
“Thanks.” The
middle-aged woman’s warmth is a sharp contrast to the chilly reception I got
outside, making me wonder if someone started a school-wide game of Hot and Cold
I don’t know about.
“How’d you know
my name?” I ask Noah as we pass through the courtyard. Low hills of dead grass
roll between the concrete walkways, each mound crested by a sapling supported
by wooden stakes, like miniature kingdoms guarded by groups of students.
Nearest us, a jock catches sight of me and turns to whisper in his buddy’s ear.
A ripple goes through the open space, and my ears flame.
Hopeful for some
semblance of normalcy, I ignore the clamminess in my palms. Resist the urge to
cover my face in my hands.
Noah chuckles.
“You’re the first new kid we’ve had since Joey Donner moved here in third
grade. Small towns, you know?”
“Right. Is this
the part where you ask me all about where I’m from and stuff?”
“I figure you’ll
tell me all about that whenever you’re ready to. Being new must be tough.” The
smile the boy throws my way makes me relax a fraction.
The morning
light glows behind the apple green leaves of the nearest tree, unearthing an
urge I haven’t felt in three months. Taking out my new phone, I peel the
protective film off so I can take a couple quick photos. Squatting gets the
composition I want. When I’m satisfied, I straighten to find my would-be
assassin watching intently.
“You a
photographer?” he asks. “Can I see?”
I hesitate, but
hold out my phone.
“It’s pretty. You’re good. You should talk to
Mr. Baugh, the art teacher, about getting into his advanced art class. I’m in
there, too.”
Embarrassed by
his easy compliment, I tuck the phone away, murmuring a quiet thanks.
Noah’s focus
moves to my face. I wait for him to zero in on the ugly line marring my skin,
but he doesn’t. Good, because despite what I told Aunt Karen, I have no idea
what to say about it. Something like relief flutters in my stomach.
“Here’s your
schedule,” Noah says, leading me along one of the walkways. “Mr. Tobin, fifth
period. He keeps his room freezing cold, so you might want to bring a blanket
to keep in your locker. A ton of people do. Last year there was even a
competition to see who could find the ugliest one. And don’t ever be late to
Ms. Parker’s class or she’ll make you wear a sombrero for the rest of the
period.” He laughs, running a hand over his black wavy hair. “Hat hair is no
joke, is all I’m saying.”
His smile pulls
a ghost of one out of me in return. The expression feels foreign on my face. I
can’t remember the last time I smiled.
Posters line the
windows of the classrooms we pass advertising football, a club for future
farmers, and cheerleading. I stifle a wince, hoping my tour guide didn’t
notice.
He doesn’t miss
much, unfortunately. “You have something against the great sport of
cheerleading?”
“Not really,” I
say with a noncommittal headshake.
“Okay… So,
here’s your first period class. If you want, I can come back after and walk you
to your next class. Make sure you don’t get lost?”
“Sure. Thanks,”
I add as an afterthought.
“See you then,
Megan.” He ducks his head before moving off.
When I step
inside the portable classroom, no one is here yet.
A janitor is
standing behind the teacher’s desk with a wastebasket in hand. “Morning,” he
grunts, setting down the empty receptacle and leaving quickly, glancing back
once. Probably to get a better look at my scar.
Settling in a
desk in the back row, I take out my phone and look at the photo of the leaves.
It is pretty good. Chewing on the
inside of my cheek, I debate for a second before opening my social media app
and posting it. It’s the first one I’ve shared since Before.
Almost
immediately a couple of people I used to chat with leave comments. Maybe I
haven’t been completely forgotten.
It would be nice
to start posting photos again. As long as Aunt Karen doesn’t find out.
Before class
starts, I unzip the front of my backpack under the desk to check the small
device she gave me. It’s still recording.
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Thursday, April 15, 2021
Don't Look Behind You Cover Reveal
Who's ready for a cover reveal? Me!
I've been sitting on this for several weeks and I'm ecstatic that today is the day to share it! It's gorgeous and creepy and I am here for it. My cover designer killed it this time around. :D
Look for more details and sneak peeks next week.
Tuesday, April 13, 2021
Teaser Tuesday: Don't Look Behind You
The truth is a deadly blade that cuts deep.
Megan Pritchard aches to find safety and security when she starts fresh in a new town. Yet the habits of a chilling past are hard to break.
Keep her head down.
Never tell them who she is.
When someone asks about her scar... lie.
For a brief flicker of time, she thought she was safe. That she could find ways to fit into that small town with secrets of its own. Then... the prickle down her spine returns.
Someone is watching and waiting—just like before. But this time they won’t settle for shallow cuts. Knives, and secrets, will be buried deep.
Don’t Look Behind You is a dark psychological thriller that will leave you guessing until the very end. Fans of Karen McManus, Chelsea Ichaso, or Natasha Preston are sure to love Emily Kazmierski’s chilling masterpiece!
Monday, October 26, 2020
Four Days Until Killer Final Exams Comes Out. Want My Thoughts in Gif Form?








Tuesday, August 11, 2020
Cover Reveal! Check out Embassy Academy Book Three: Killer Final Exams!
Who says teenagers don’t have stalkers?
I can’t shake the feeling someone’s watching me. Then the creepy text messages start. And “gifts” arrive with notes written in blood.
When a girl goes missing from a nearby embassy, it seems unrelated, but after the deaths that have occurred at Embassy Academy, can it really be a coincidence?
Time’s running out and if I don’t figure out who my stalker is, more people will disappear. Even worse, their next target is my girlfriend.
Embassy Academy: Killer Final Exams is a young adult romantic thriller, and the final book in the trilogy.
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I loved writing Ricardo's story, and although editing it has been quite the process, I'm proud of how it's turning out. I think you'll love reading more about Ricardo and Charlotte, all of their friends, and the shenanigans those diplomats' kids get into.
If you love trying to guess whodunit, redeemed villains, new friends and old loves, creepy notes and seemingly omniscient anonymous texters, this story is for you.
Add Killer Final Exams to Goodreads here.
Pre-order on Amazon here.
P.S. The Amazon page says the book doesn't come out until January 2021, but I'm working hard to get it out much sooner--probably in October. I'm excited to share it with you lovely people.
Tuesday, May 12, 2020
Upcoming YA and Adult Thrillers I Can't Wait to Read
Here are a few mysteries and thrillers on my ever-expanding TBR:
All Your Twisted Secrets by Diane Urban
What do the queen bee, star athlete, valedictorian, stoner, loner, and music geek all have in common? They were all invited to a scholarship dinner, only to discover it’s a trap. Someone has locked them into a room with a bomb, a syringe filled with poison, and a note saying they have an hour to pick someone to kill … or else everyone dies.
Amber Prescott is determined to get her classmates and herself out of the room alive, but that might be easier said than done. No one knows how they’re all connected or who would want them dead. As they retrace the events over the past year that might have triggered their captor’s ultimatum, it becomes clear that everyone is hiding something. And with the clock ticking down, confusion turns into fear, and fear morphs into panic as they race to answer the biggest question: Who will they choose to die?
Little Creeping Things by Chelsea Ichaso
But then Melody goes missing, and Cassidy thinks she may have information. She knows she should go to the cops, but she recently joked about how much she’d like to get rid of Melody. She even planned out the perfect way to do it. And then she gets a chilling text from an unknown number: I’m so glad we’re in this together.
Now it’s up to Cassidy to figure out what really happened before the truth behind Melody’s disappearance sets the whole town ablaze.
The Girl from Widow Hills by Megan Miranda
Arden Maynor was just a child when she was swept away while sleepwalking during a terrifying rainstorm and went missing for days. Strangers and friends, neighbors and rescue workers, set up search parties and held vigils, praying for her safe return. Against all odds, she was found, alive, clinging to a storm drain. The girl from Widow Hills was a living miracle. Arden’s mother wrote a book. Fame followed. Fans and fan letters, creeps, and stalkers. And every year, the anniversary. It all became too much. As soon as she was old enough, Arden changed her name and disappeared from the public eye.
Now a young woman living hundreds of miles away, Arden goes by Olivia. She’s managed to stay off the radar for the last few years. But with the twentieth anniversary of her rescue approaching, the media will inevitably renew its interest in Arden. Where is she now? Soon Olivia feels like she’s being watched and begins sleepwalking again, like she did long ago, even waking outside her home. Until late one night she jolts awake in her yard. At her feet is the corpse of a man she knows—from her previous life, as Arden Maynor.
And now, the girl from Widow Hills is about to become the center of the story, once again.
The Cousins by Karen M. McManus
Their parents are all clear on one point--not going is not an option. This could be the opportunity to get back into Grandmother's good graces. But when the cousins arrive on the island, it's immediately clear that she has different plans for them. And the longer they stay, the more they realize how mysterious--and dark--their family's past is.
The entire Story family has secrets. Whatever pulled them apart years ago isn't over--and this summer, the cousins will learn everything.
The Obsession by Jesse Sutanto
But after Logan sees Delilah killing her abusive stepfather, he realizes there’s still more about her to discover. His sweet, perfect Delilah isn’t so perfect after all.
Delilah knows she should feel guilty, but all she feels is free. She’s so over the men in her life controlling her. Except Logan saw what she did, and he won’t let her forget it.
Delilah is done being the victim. And she refuses to be a character in Logan’s twisted fantasy. If Logan won’t let her go…she’ll make him.